Saturday, January 8, 2011

Psalm 37

The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord: and he delighteth in his way. Psalm 37:23

Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down: for the Lord upholdeth him with his hand. Psalm 37:24

I have to thank Kristi from Thimble Thoughts for a post she did about forgiving others. Kristi and I met here on Blogger and since then we have become Facebook friends. When Kristi posted her blog telling us we need to forgive, I decided to ask her to pray for me because I have problems forgiving others. She said she would pray for me and she also told me to read Psalm 37. Who knew Psalm 37 would open up a bunch of other feelings that I have been going through.

The year of 2010 was really hard for me and my mind. I've faced depression before but I believe it was harder in 2010. So much that I didn't think I would make it through the winter and I even told a few.

I won't lie but I became very angry with God and I couldn't hear His voice. The only voices I heard was the ones speaking to my mind telling me I was worthless and didn't have a purpose. I wanted to escape the thoughts and I would pray but it was as if God wasn't listening. As I said I had talked with others but one night I swallowed my pride and stood at church and told everyone most of the things I had been going through and ask them to pray for me. That was very hard for me to do because as I said, I had the original sin of pride in my heart.

So things have become to get better and now when I look back I see that God's grace pulled me through. I know at the time I couldn't be delighted to be facing what I was going through but I'm delighted now that God helped me. And when I felt cast down He was there to uphold me.

Friday, January 7, 2011

One (Honda) Accord

This was a conversation that me and my friend were having the other day. The statement came up that we needed to get in one Honda accord and that they were willing but was everyone else willing. And they proceed to say they haven't saw people that willing since Acts. I know you are wondering what we were talking about. Well we can have a serious conversation and still add a little humor.

All through the book of Acts there are two words that stand out and those two words are "ONE ACCORD." The thing with today, it seems the church doesn't want that, but we NEED that. To be in "ONE ACCORD" with one another.

I've made up my mind that no matter what others do though, I want to be in "ONE ACCORD" with God. I want Him to make me different and maybe someone will say, "I want that." And just maybe we will slowly get to the point of "ONE ACCORD" again.

Just some thoughts running through my head.