Last night I finally broke down and told a handful of people at my church (handful because everyone was sick but maybe 30 or 40 people) that I've been going through a hard time. I was actually at the point that I didn't think I would survive through the winter. I personally felt the devil was trying to kill me and filling my mind with lies. Yes I knew they were lies but it was like my mind was telling him go ahead and pull up a chair and tell me more. I swallowed my pride and finally ask my church to pray for me. And I'm still trying to realize that happiness is depending on happenings but joy is depending on Jesus! After church was over I walked out and was stopped by my Sunday School teacher Matt L. and he told me the whole time I was testifying that he kept having a song go through his mind. Here is the video of the song that was on Matt's mind...
